My Goal: Not to Read My Own Articles
It will show that I grew past my previous self.
I write articles mainly as a form of emotional release. There is a lot that I go through during a week and the insights that I get while dealing with them lead to the creation of the article. Most of the time the emotion present in my mind is not fully healed even after writing the article and hence when I reread the article I still get a form of emotional release making me feel better.
Benefits of Writing
Writing enables us to process the emotions going on in the mind. It gives a channeled outlet to it enabling us to express our deep fears and desires. This expression is extremely important for not letting one get submerged in emotional turmoil.
Writing also is an art. It depicts the free flow of thoughts that get expressed in the form of an article or a book. Previously I used to take 2–3 hours to write an article but now I can do so within an hour. I also normally do not edit my article except for some grammatical mistakes. This shows that as a person I am growing and being able to have a free flow of thoughts.
People Outgrow Their Previous Self
It was a different phase of my life when I wrote my earlier articles. Most of the examples I took in my articles were actually related to me and writing about it provided an emotional outlet.
Once you express the emotions hiding in your mind and then work upon the belief responsible for the creation of those emotions then you will not be bothered by it anymore. At least that’s what I aim to do. I want to reach a state where I perform catharsis i.e. deal with my suppress emotions by releasing them by rereading articles, intense spasmodic movements, etc. After that, I can analyze the belief and replace it with a better one.
Example: There have been several articles where I took the example of suppressing sexual desires in a conservative society and how it harmed me. To outgrow my previous self concerning this issue, I first released all the suppressed anger against elders in society, friends, etc, and then analyzed the belief. I realized I was dependent upon these people indirectly so their opinions mattered to me. I also realized that most of these people are victims too of societal programming so considering them at a level above me is not correct.
After removing the emotional charge and working upon the beliefs responsible for the creation of the emotions in the first place, I was able to overcome my inclination to write about similar topics, or even if I write about them it is no more a form of emotional release but just a piece of advice based out of my experience.
Conclusion
Rereading articles written by me is a form of re-experiencing the emotions that I had while writing the article. It is cathartic in nature and soothes the emotional turmoil going on in the mind. But I realize that once you outgrow your previous self by working on the issue that once bothered you then there will not be much to gain by rereading your article. Thus, my goal of writing articles is to document my journey towards becoming a better human being but without having the need to revisit my earlier articles. It will then truly depict that I have evolved.
